Discovering Who I amI have been doing a lot of thinking this past week about a number of things but mainly about who I am. I am a rock chick, a country girl, someone who will listen, someone you can have crazy fun with because you know everyone is crazy even if they do not admit it. I am a 24 year old white girl, who is 5' 3" an average build. I have blue eyes, wear contacts, my hair is dirty blond. I like anime/manga, I like to sing, read, write and draw. I am all this and more. To most who know me I am a girl and I like guys. That is not a lie but that is not the whole truth either. I am a girl who likes guys but I am also a girl who likes girls. Saying I am straight is not correct although that is what I commonly refer to myself as. Yet saying I am lesbian is not entirely true either. It took awhile for me to understand but I like both guys and girls.I never thought about it until now but like most little girls I had Barbies. I had one or maybe two Ken dolls but the rest were all Barbie. I do not reme
My GirlfriendWhen I first met youI did not knowThat you had capturedMy heartWanting to ask you outOnly to findYou were already takenWe became friendsClose friendsBonding quicklyYou introduced meTo a friendWe also became friendsShe was taken tooYou and IWe hung out oftenI was invited to your weddingAn escort to your friendHer husband could not goThe night beforeYou on the couch bedMe in my bedWantingYou beside meThe weddingBeautifulSo were youGood memoriesWe continue to hang outI have my first timeNot youWith another girlMonths laterYou are more touchyThanks normalI can tellYou have been drinkingYou try to kiss meYou poke meI slide awayWe end upAlmost in the kitchenOur heads collideWe laughYou try to kiss meI turn awayI want to kiss youYour husband is thereHe saysYou like meHe goes outside for a smokeYou try to kiss me againI dodgeStill strangeTo kiss youI keep thinkingWill he walk inWill he be madI cant believeThat you liked me tooTh
KnowingI love youKnowing you belong to anotherIf he ever hurts youKnow you can come to meI pray he never doesMy heart aches for youMost of the time I feel in silenceYou have shown me that I am not aloneIt pains me to know you hurtKnowing I am helplessFeeling I am part of the causeLonging to touch and hold youWondering if I should walk awayCausing you to hate me to make things easierUnable to do so knowing it would hurt youKnowing it would hurt meWanting only to make you smileFeeling fate brought us togetherOnly to laugh at me knowing it was too lateEven still thought each day is another momentI cherish not regretting meeting youLife never turns out as we planKnowing you belong to anotherYou love me
You and MeKnown you five yearsLoved you four yearsLoved you when I shouldn't haveTried to stop loving youEven when my heart would notUps and downs along the wayPulling me toward the dayA day not in my reachA day I did not dare forLoving you got me highLoving you made me lowSix months agoYou asked and I said yesTo be your wifeOne month agoOur commitment made realI am yoursYou are mineForever and alwaysUntil we draw the final breathYou are my wife
UntitledWhen I think of you there is pain.I know it is for the best.That does not mean it does not hurt.You said you loved me.Did I love you?Yes I think I did.I still want to be with you.I know I shouldn't,but I do.This is for the best.I still see you in my dreams.There is something I want.Even more than to touch you.I want our friendship to survive.You were my friend first,My lover second.In my heart you will always be.
With This RingFirst you were my friend,You spent the night before your wedding on my couch.Then you were my lover,I cherish the time we had.Next we discovered we were cousins,The name Myatt is our common link.Finally we are sisters,Spiritual sisters in the Goddess.Taking a journey together,The Haematite rings we wear signifies our bond.